Trying to be patient...

I don't think patience is my best quality...in fact I have a lack thereof. I've tried to be patient and not let all of this bother me, but it does, and I get frustrated when month after month it doesn't work. I read into every little symptom, pain, twinge, and cramp. I research hours and hours on end and I think I know just about everything there is to know about the female reproductive system, but yet it's not easy! Why is it so easy for some and not others? I try to be patient. I am a week away from my test date for this cycle, and I try not to think about it. I do a fairly good job when I am at work, but the times I am alone, it's harder than when I am occupied. I keep on believing there is a plan and someday this will happen, but as all do, I sometimes stumble.