Tuesday, September 6, 2011

High Risk Grad!

Today, at 35w5d, I am a High Risk Graduate!  What do I mean?  I had my last appointment with my high risk Dr. and we have been released until the next time we decide to do this dance again (and God willing, as long as all goes well this time...it won't be for a while!).

Cameron was a good girl today and showed off her ability to practice breathing and even gave them some good motions to see.  We verified, yet again, that she is a little girl!  Adam also asked about hair, and you could see lots of hair on her ultrasound!

She is still measuring about 2 1/2 weeks ahead, which means at almost 36 weeks, she is measuring almost 39...and she's weighing in (according to measurements from the ultrasound) at 7 pounds 14 ounces!  That's more than her mommy weighed but no where near where chunky daddy weighed!  :)  If she gains another 1/2 a pound between now and next Thursday, then she should be well into the 8 pound range.  My regular Dr. has always said that ultrasounds in the 3rd trimester can go 1 pound either way because it's so hard, but based on how big I am measuring, she wouldn't doubt that ours is going to go towards the +1 pound as opposed to the -1 pound.  She's going to be our chunky little girl when she comes out!  :)

I'm getting excited, but I'm still so scared and anxious.  Every pain I question still...every lazy moment I worry...but, I am allowing myself to get excited.  But, there are days I still find it hard.

I have come to the conclusion that I suck at being pregnant though.  I am whiny, a complainer, and the worrying doesn't help.  So, I deem myself as a horrible pregnant person.  I am just as bad as every other naive pregnant person, who at this point is so fat and miserable that they are done.  I am so entirely grateful for getting this far, but I'm to the point where I just want the end result.

I want her here.  I want her safe.  I want her healthy.  I want her alive.

I don't ask for much. 

4 comments:

Violet1122 said...

I am so excited for you! I know these last days just seem to drag on. I remember, so clearly, how crazed I felt... just wanting my baby safe in my arms. I hope these last remaining days pass quickly for you.

More than anything, though, I'm praying your little girl arrives without any drama and healthy!

If you haven't thought of it already... take a picture of you and your husband just before you leave for the hospital. We took one of us, just moments before we went out the door, and it's one of my favorite pictures now. We look tired, excited, scared, and thrilled all at the same time. I hope it would be a fun sort of picture for you to have, too.

I will be checking your blog obsessively over the next several days for updates!

Jenny said...

I am so excited that you are a graduate and that it sounds like shes doing wonderfully! Sooo close we are! 12 more days for me woohoo :D

Drew's Parents said...

Congratulations on being a high risk graduate! :-) It sounds like Cameron is doing very well. She is a big girl! I can't wait to see pictures of her. I know she is going to be beautiful! <3 Hang in there...not too much longer now. I am sending prayers and love your way.

Jill said...

Such wonderful news!