A New Year

It's a new year...This time last year, I was so excited because we were expecting our little Bailey.  The weather was horrible and it was miserable...but I didn't care.  This morning, we woke up to finding out Adam's grandmother has had a stroke, and his uncle has been diagnosed with throat cancer.  I didn't sleep well last night, and today my emotions were all over the place.  I started of the morning just crying because I didn't know what else to do.  Why was I crying?  No clue.

This year, I am starting off the year by finding things that we don't need and we don't use, and I am listing it for sale.  Adam's car is close to paid off, and we are trying to figure out how we are going to fund the adoption without going so far in debt that we can't see straight.  But, we are willing to do that, if it's what it takes.

We are cleaning and cleaning, because we need to get everything ready for when we do our homestudy.  We want to make sure it's all just perfect.  I know they aren't coming in here to nit-pick our lives and our home, but something about this makes me want to make sure it's just right.

So, the decluttering begins...I feel like I did when we started packing our lives away in 2009 so we could sell our house.  We wanted to sell our house and buy a bigger house so we could have plenty of room for our family.  Now, I am wanting to sell our things so we can have plenty of room and a little less stress.

Kind of ironic, huh?

This is just a rambling post today...it fits my mood on the first day of 2011...a big jumbled mess.