Over the span of the first year after Bailey's death, we really did not get the "kids question" very much. In fact, the first time I got the question was closer to the end of 2010. Adam had gotten it once or twice, but not many.
Now, being VERY pregnant, we have gotten the question MANY times...and here's how the conversations go:
How much longer do you have? Insert time here until September 15th...
Is this your first? No, it's our second.
How old is your first? She passed shortly after birth.
Oh my gosh...I'm so sorry.
Insert cricket noises here, because the conversation normally goes completely silent after that. But, the fact of the matter is...this is our second baby. But, I REFUSE to answer the question and tell people this is our first. I feel like I am not doing Bailey justice if I say that Cameron is our first.
Today, the conversation with a woman who was showing us where something was in Best Buy went exactly the way I just listed it. After she walked off, I looked at Adam and said "Wow, are we conversation killers, or what?". We both laughed...yes, morbid sense of humor there, but what else can you do? We looked at what we needed to look at, and then we moved on. We checked out (Adam bought Portal 2) and headed outside. We carried on with the conversation about how we have really killed some conversations with innocent, unknowing strangers, who asked what "should be" a simple question.
But, it's not a simple question. And it definitely doesn't have a simple answer. But, let me tell you, that's the quickest way to cease a conversation.
And I bet we continue to get the question after Miss Cameron arrives and comes home (hopefully). And the answer will remain the same. Forever and always.
**Sweet baby girl, mommy and daddy will never leave you out of our kid count. You are our sweet forever baby, and you will always count.**