Missing my Bailey

A friend on a birth board I was on, just recently lost her little boy after he was born around 24 weeks. The experience she is going through just absolutely breaks my heart, and takes me back to my surreal day. My heart is hurting...I miss Bailey so much...it's been a few days since the tears have fallen...and today it seems exceptionally hard to make them stop. I want her here...I want her with me...I wish she was still happy and kicking me and hiding from her daddy when he would try to feel. It's not fair and I don't understand. I try, and some days I succeed, but today is not one of those days. So hard.........