Since losing Bailey, I have lost every single bit of my pregnancy weight, plus some. I am actually almost 10 pounds lighter than I was when I first found out I was pregnant. I've lost a total of 44.2 pounds since September 2009. However, here's the problem I've ran across...
People see me, and they notice all the weight loss. They tell me I look great. But, then come the questions.
At my 1 week post-partum visit, I had lost 15 pounds since my previous appointment. The nurse asked my husband if I was eating. I had been, just not much. Anxiety, sadness, and burying your child tends to not make you hungry.
At my 6 week post-partum visit, I had lost a good chunk more. Again, the nurse asked if I was eating, because I had lost another significant amount of weight. I told her I was, but I was doing Weight Watchers again.
Now, 3 1/2 month post-partum, I am down 30+ pounds from my highest weight during pregnancy, and I STILL have people asking me if I am eating. I am losing weight the healthy way. I am working out, I am doing Weight Watchers, and I am finally beginning to be "okay" with my body. I still have another 45 pounds I would love to lose, but it will be done the healthy way.
I'm focusing on my physical weight, because the emotional weight is too much to handle right now. If I focus my sights on one thing (other than getting pregnant and having a successful pregnancy), then I don't focus all day on the emotional hardship that has fallen right square in my lap. The emotional weight is enough to carry...I don't need the physical weight too right now. So, I will continue to work hard and strive to get healthier, and the extra physical weight can go away. I don't want it back, unless it means there is a little bundle growing in my belly. That's the only way I'll take it back right now.