Friday, August 27, 2010

Your Due Date

My dearest Bailey,

Today was supposed to be your due date, and today mommy isn't doing very good.  I'm so sad baby girl.  I feel so cheated of the life I was supposed to have with you. 

From the moment we found out we were expecting you, we dreamt of this day. We anticipated welcoming you into our little family, bringing you home, and watching you grow. We couldn't wait for that time to come. But, when you arrived 17 weeks too soon, on April 30, I since have dreaded this day. I knew it was going to be tough. I knew it was going to be hard. And I knew we could only spend it "with" you and for you.  So, Daddy and I took the day off of work.  It's your day baby girl, and even though we aren't doing any of the things we planned or hoped for, it's still your day.



So, today, we are doing things in remembrance of you.  We are going to go to your resting place and putting out new flowers.  We got some pink ones and some purple ones, and we even got a pink butterfly and a purple butterfly to put out there too.  I know you'll love them.

We are taking your fur-sibling (Desmond) with us, and we are going to Sulphur to have a picnic at the park, and we are also going to walk the trails.  The weather is perfect and it's something we will never get to do with you, so it's something we are going to do in remembrance of you. 

Your Daddy surprised me with pink cupcakes last night, just in your honor today.  They have cream cheese in them, and pink icing.  They are supposed to be delicious.  I cried, because I didn't expect him to do something like that.  He planned that just for you!

Tonight, when we get home, we will light a candle in your honor.  It will be to remember you and all of your angel friends. 

Baby girl, you are so loved and so missed by many.  Mommy and Daddy think of you daily, and we wish everyday that you were here with us.

Loving You and Missing You always,
Mommy

12 comments:

Dana said...

Oh Danae! What a beautiful letter! I love everything that you are doing in remembrance of Bailey today. It was so sweet of your husband to bring those cupcakes home. I know that Bailey is watching over you and loves everything that you are doing in her honour. She is such a special little girl and she has such wonderful parents.

I hope that you have as peaceful a day as you can. I will be thinking about you, Bailey and your husband all day. Sending you love, strength and hugs.

Brie said...

Thinking of you today as this must be a very difficult day for you--I'm glad you and your husband will be doing things in tribute of your baby girl. She most certainly is very very loved.

Elaine said...

Oh Danae, reading this has brought tears to my eyes. You are such a sweet and loving mother. I know Bailey misses you just as much as you miss her. I will tell Blaine to give her a big hug today. My husband and I will be lighting a candle for Bailey tonight as well. Sending you lots of love. xoxo

Angela said...

This is a beautiful letter to Bailey. I think it's wonderful that you are going to spend the day remembering her. I'm glad your husband bought you cupcakes to let you know he is thinking of her too. You are a loving Mama. Bailey loves and misses you too.

Jenna said...

Danae, sending you many hugs and prayers today. Bailey is so lucky to have such wonderful parents. I know she will be with you today giving you hugs and kisses.

Julie said...

this is just beautiful, danae. i'm so, so sorry that bailey is not here. she would have been so blessed to grow up with you as her mom. i'm thinking of you and bailey today.

Michelle said...

Beautiful letter, Danae your daughter is beautiful

Lisette said...

((HUGS))--- what a wonderful way to spend on her day. I know it's hard on you, I am sorry.

Jennifer said...

Remembering Bailey with you. She is truly loved and missed. You and your husband are wonderful parents. You make her proud. (((hugs)))

Violet1122 said...

I've got you and Bailey and your husband in my prayers right now. She is so, so beautiful. I know today isn't right without her with you... but I hope you find some peace and comfort as you celebrate her.

Sending you lots of hugs...

In My Heart said...

Thinking of you and sending you big hugs~

Jill

butterflymom said...

So sorry that it was a difficult day...wishing things could have been different. Glad that you found ways to honor and remember Bailey... The day sounded beautiful and, hopefully, gave you some peace. ((Hugs))