Today is your 3 month Angelversary, my precious little one. THREE months. One entire quarter of the year. In three months, we have celebrated your birth, mourned your death, celebrated mommy's 27th birthday, "celebrated" mommy's 1st Mother's Day and daddy's 1st Father's Day, made it through the first 4th of July without you, and celebrated daddy's 29th birthday. That's alot to do in 3 months, sweet girl. But, even with all of these things to do, they still didn't feel quite right...because they were all missing you.
My sweet daughter, I am sad that I don't know what you would be doing right now if you were still with us. IF, in the alternate world, you survived, you would be a vibrant thriving 3 month old. Or, would you still be baking in mommy's tummy? If you were, I would be 36 weeks pregnant, huge as a house, and anxiously awaiting your arrival. But, I don't live in an alternate world, I live in a world without you. And it's a heartbreaking world.
I know you have made friends in Heaven. I know you are playing with all of the other angel babies that were taken from their mommies and daddies far too early. I know you are playing with Stevie, Valentina, Avery, and Charlotte. You might even being batting your long eyelashes and giving a quirky little grin with those lips you got from mommy at Jacob, Kenny, Drew, or Blaine (or maybe even all of them). Whoever you have met and whatever you are doing, please be good. Please tell all of your friends (and I know you have hundreds of them), that their mommies and daddies miss them, just as much as we miss you. Because sweet girl, we miss you all so very much. We love you all so very much.
Sweet girl, I know you are also spending time with your great grandma, great grandpa, and great papaw. I know they are watching over you until it is time for us to meet again. I hope they are telling you all about me. Your great papaw is an especially good story teller...don't let him tell you any stories about bears though!
My daughter, I now know that I was meant to meet all of these wonderful mommies and daddies, but I still wish you were here with me. But, I know you have sent all of them to me, so we can all be there for each other in this very difficult time.
We love you, my precious, sweet, darling daughter. You were the light of my life. You are deeply missed, and will be forever. I hope you are having a good time in Heaven, and I want to hear all about it on that day we meet again.