Tuesday, July 6, 2010

Is it really THAT bad?

Today, I was having a conversation with a girl from work.  She was having a really bad day.  Her dog is either lost or has been stolen, and her sister-in-law killed herself this weekend.  I was just completely shocked.

I cannot imagine thinking life was so bad that THAT was the only way out.  I just physically cannot imagine it.  I have suffered the loss of my daughter, and I still don't think life is THAT bad.  What I have been through is probably one of the worst things a person can ever go through.  And yes I am sad, and it hurts, and it's unfair, but wow...to feel like that was my only option...again...it's just wow.

It makes me incredibly sad to think about the family this woman left behind.  The hurt others will feel because of a decision she made.  I don't know her story or her circumstances, but it makes me so sad.

4 comments:

Jacob Brodie Lankford said...

Praying for you!

Violet1122 said...

Suicide breaks my heart. I cannot imagine the pain someone must be in, in order to take their own life. And the destruction that choice leaves behind... to family, friends... it's just awful.

I've been pretty low in my life, but the idea of suicide has never crossed my mind.

I guess we all have choices when it comes to our grief. I'm sure your co-worker takes some comfort in being able to confide in you.

Stuff like this really makes you think...

Lucid Anne said...

I think of this all the time. I HAVE considered suicide. So has my husband. But we just couldn't do that to the people who love us so much. And we still manage to have hope for the future...

Julie said...

i have fought depression in the past, and at one time was suicidal, although i never actually attempted. like you, the way i look at it now is that i have lost my child. as far as i am concerned, this is the worst thing that can ever possibly happen to me. i did not fall apart. i still get up every morning, make plans for the next day or the next month. i still have hope to get pregnant again. i know now that if i can survive this - and i AM surviving - then i can survive anything. every day we get through, every opportunity we take advantage of to get out of the house, tell someone else our story, do something productive, is another step toward coming out of this pit.