Since Saturday, I have been in a "funk". Father's Day was horribly hard, and emotionally, trying to prepare for Father's Day was hard. So, I thought once Father's Day came and went, and the tears were cried, I would be out of my funk...and today I have found that NOT to be the case.
I'm still in a funk...I was 20 minutes late for work this morning because of the funk. I didn't want to get up, I didn't want to take a shower, and I didn't want to go to work. So I sat in front of my computer, I played Cubis and listened to some iTunes, and I piddled around until it was 20 minutes after I should have left, and finally I left for work. And in case you are wondering, yes I did shower.
I am always on time...I'm normally early...but today, I didn't care.
My boss asked if I was having a bad day...the response was "yes" (short, simple, to the point), and her response was 2 parts...the first "what caused your bad day/weekend?" I thought to my self..."Well...um...duh", but didn't say it...I just responded with "I'm pretty sure Father's Day". The 2nd part to the response was "Oh, well at least the bad days are getting further apart".
Here's the deal...In the beginning, I would have a descent day, then a bad day. I would have a really "good" day and then have really bad day. Now I've had a few descent days, just to turn around have multiple days of bad. I really HATE this roller coaster...I never wanted to get on it in the first place, and now I wish I could get off of it.
But, it's the roller coaster I am going to have to ride for the rest of my life.